Teachers make the worst students...

Isn't that so true!

I can certainly attest to the fact that since beginning college I have become one of the worst students ever. Hahaha, I know me right? Sure I go to class, I have only missed one class so far this semester... but do I do anything in class? That answer is straight up no, well except for biochemistry of course!

This is my schedule breakdown and what I do in each class:
1.) Biochemistry - I actually take notes but never study until the day of the exam
2.) Principles of Assessment - I either color, do work for another class, text, daydream, or some combination of those.
3.) Analytical Chemistry Lab - I have to actually do the labs but text in the process
4.) Classroom Management - I text all class or draw pictures on my powerpoint notes or make lists
5.) Diversity - I love this class, but while semi paying attention to what's going on I text, a lot.

Now, although this lack of paying attention in class and studying only on the day of my midterms has stretched throughout my college career... my lack of motivation and increased procrastination has gotten pretty out of hand.

For example, I have a midterm tonight in my management class. Have i started studying? No, but I have reread chapters and highlighted important things! Am I worried about the test? Of course I am, I just can't seem to motivate myself to get the studying done. Another example from that class. I looked at the calendar today while not paying attention in biochemistry and realized that I have a unit plan due in two weeks that is supposed to take some 40ish hours of out of class work. Have I started it? Well kinda, I have one lesson plan finished and the second of seven started. I just can't seem to motivate myself to get my butt in gear and finish the darn project. Luckily, I have combined that project with one that I have to do for my assessment class so once I finish one, I'll just have to tweak it for the other. Now, its really not as bad as it seems because I have all my lesson plans figured out with what I want to teach on what days and what activities will be tied in with those lectures but I just haven't typed it all into a pretty lesson plan and powerpoint with teacher notes.

Being the perfectionist that I am, knowing that I have all this stuff due in the coming weeks and none of it is formally started on scares me to death because I know before I turn it in, it will have to be perfect or else I'll get really mad at myself.

Now my questioning self, wonders if this is the result of all kinds of stuff happening outside of school this semester. Does it have something to do with where I used to work, the situations that I had to deal with, etc.? I know for a fact that I am procrastinating on my observation hours because I don't want to step foot on that campus much less observe the people who backstabbed me which I have to do because of the way that class works. Possibly but that really isn't an excuse now because I am out of those situations and need to refocus on getting my stuff done.

So my plan for the rest of the day is as follows:
1.) Go to assessment and study for my management midterm.
2.) Mass
3.) Go to McLaurin and make sure they register me for my two theatre classes I have to take next semester
4.) Go home and eat lunch.
5.) Study for my midterm.
6.) Take a break and write a lesson plan.
7.) Study some more
8.) Go back to school for my midterm at 5.

Hopefully I can stick to it and not get distracted by other randomness! Wish me luck!