Working on me...

This weekend has been soley devoted to me working on me. There is so much going on in my life, that I need to devote some serious time to getting myself in order before I can mend broken friendships and move on to future ones. I started the thinking process Friday and it will continue for awhile. There are a lot of things that have happened that I regret, and I blame myself for all of them. I miss the way things used to be, when decisions were simple and friends were always there. Unfortunately since I started college, that has all changed. I am completely unhappy with who I'm becoming. I don't want to be a negative person and always pissed, upset, or depressed. I guess admitting that I'm not happy with me is the first step to changing it. There is no one besides myself that can change me and my attitude. Sometimes I wish there was someone who could change me, but I know thats not a possibility. I know that this is something I have to do, to attempt to fix things. I know that I have been blessed throughout my life a feel horrible for being so depressed and negative about things. I'm nervous about what the future holds. I hope that it has a lot of laughter, happiness, smiles, and a few tears here and there. I hope that the future is all that I dream of and more. I hope that I still stay in touch with my current friends then. I do have to say my friends are amazing, and hopefully they understand everything thats going on nvm I know they understand thats why they're my friends. Thanks for being so amazing and I love yall!